I need motivation. I have slowly become someone with no self control or self worth. Where did the days go where I used to want to prove something to the world? Ever since I left Sheridan for Laramie I have completely lost who I am. I can easily talk myself out of working out, and talk myself into eating an entire pizza. Sinking back into behaviors that I’m not proud of, especially when they are harmful to my body and my health. Personally, I believe that my unhealthy relationship with my body and with food can be directly tied to my family. Recently I moved to Texas from Wyoming, and my mom and my sister put it into my head that I needed to lose weight by the time I came back to visit. Instead, I have put on an additional ten pounds. My clothes are tight, and I do not want to be seen in public. My aunt and uncle that I am staying with eat like crap, and then make comments to me about my weight. I miss my immediate family, but I am not looking forward to their ridicule or that of my entire hometown.